Where are you, God?
Dropping my phone yesterday morning and laying on my bed, I dared to ask this question.
It’s very easy to see God when things are rosy and all is well in our lives but it’s extremely hard to see him when we are hurt, ashamed and miserable. For the past two years in my life, I have gone through a lot of phases and a lot of times, I have been unable to find God in the hard places of my life. Sometimes I have been stupid enough to believe that God doesn’t love me and the person that is doing great, the same. Sometimes I have believed that I have offended God quite a lot and so, I shouldn’t expect to get anything from him because I don’t deserve his love.
And so, yesterday I asked God, ‘where are you?’ And though he didn’t appear to me immediately with an answer, he sure gave me an answer before the day ran out…
I crossed the road yesterday and I was about to fall in the middle of the road, but I didn’t. Obviously, I wasn’t the one protecting me. God was there.
My brothers came back from work yesterday, safe and sound…God was there, protecting them.
My parents are alive and well, despite a lot of attacks against their lives. God was there too.
For the first time since I got into Uni, my result experienced an increase and even though it wasn’t the groundbreaking 5.00 GPA I wanted, I looked at my result and saw God’s hands in it.
The truth is that I’m a far cry away from the person I want to be and I haven’t figured out my whole life, but in the crushing, in the pressing, I can feel God moulding me into the person he wants me to become. I would trade it all so I can become a vessel for God. It’s not about me or what I want, but what God wants for me. That is why Jeremiah 29:11 will always be my favourite verse in the Bible.
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord , thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.
God has a great deal in store for me and when I think that he is MIA, he is actually trying to prepare me for that great future.
So whenever you can’t see God, I want you to be at peace with the mindset that he is working things out for you and you can’t see it because you are only human. Always believe that all things are working out for your good everyday, and only then will you be able to find God in the hard places.
Have a nice weekend guys. I love you.